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Classical Caber (Victory Edition): Piano Miniature No. 10, “Gracieux”

The last 48 hours have been unbelievable. What started as an idea during a trip to a piano store a little over a week ago turned into a whirlwind fundraising effort in an attempt to get Dirk the piano he so badly needs to start composing again. To be honest, Dirk and I expected to maybe get a few bucks from you guys here and there, and every little bit would have helped a lot. But to raise over $5,000 in just over 24 hours? Dirk and I are floored. Positively floored. And moved beyond belief. Thank you so, so much… this is really going to change Dirk’s life.

Dirk said that if we reached the $5,000 mark, he would share an original composition that he’s never shared before. And here it is… Dirk’s Piano Miniature No. 10: Gracieux, the tenth in a series of 24 piano miniatures, none longer than about 3 minutes. He composed this particular miniature in the style of a sicilienne, a form that was first used for arias in Baroque operas and is meant to evoke a pastoral mood. I love how it draws you in; you can really get lost in its texture, but then at the end you can’t help but have a big smile on your face:


I know that “gracieux” technically means “graceful”, but in this case I like to think it means “grateful” … which pretty much sums up how Dirk and I both feel right now.

While we’ve already reached our $5,000 target, it’s not too late to get Dirk’s music on CD (some of which, like this sicilienne, he’s never shared before), a signed score, framed manuscript, or personalized composition! Just head on over to http://gofundme.com/piano-for-dirk and choose which option you’d like. (By the way, the pianos we’re looking at cost between $10,000 and $15,000. We deliberately set the fundraising bar kinda low because we didn’t want to lean on you guys too much, and we’re going to find a way to finance the rest, but every penny you contribute will still help a ton.)

Again… Dirk and I are completely blown away. We love you guys!

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New NSFW Video: Dirk Caber, Hunter Marx, and “The Intimidator”

While filming a scene in Palm Springs back in March, my hubby Dirk and our buddy Hunter Marx got a chance to play around with one of latest offerings in Titan’s line of sex toys: The Intimidator. Judging by the following video, it looks like they had fun.


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Order your very own Intimidator here. It also makes a great fashion accessory… just ask Titan director Jasun Mark:

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VIDEO: Dirk and I go piano shopping!

Dirk’s been in the market for a piano for quite some time. The only chance he gets to play these days is on the Steinway at his parents’ house in Maine. (There’s a video of him playing it here.) But that’s an hour and half away, and as a composer, he really needs to have a piano at the ready so he can create whenever his muse calls him. So… we’re going piano shopping!

Ideally we’d get something called a hybrid, which is a digital piano with a mechanical mechanism. They’re small enough to fit in our house but still sound beautiful, plus the digital functionality would allow him to play with headphones, which would really come in handy (we have downstairs neighbors). They’re really pricey, though… the one he really likes is listed at $15,000. We’re also looking at straight-up digital pianos, which are a lot less expensive (the good ones range from $2,500 to about $6,000), then we’d eventually trade up. The important thing, I think, is just to get a keyboard in the house. Then I have a feeling we’ll start seeing a lot more compositions like these. Time to start saving money… or perhaps find a rich benefactor. Volunteers, anyone?

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Here’s Eric Nero’s latest… plus a sneak peek at our upcoming scene!

Eric Nero‘s dick is huge… I know, I’ve seen it first hand. Last November, Eric and I shot a scene for the upcoming film Jail Break. I play a federal agent who’s in pursuit of escaped convict Eric, chasing him through the woods and eventually tasering him into submission. The movie’s not out yet, but here are a few screen captures from the rough cut. Please forgive the quality — they were shot by an iPhone off of director Jasun Mark’s editing station — but it’s enough to give you an idea:

Jail Break will be released later this year, exclusively from TitanMen. In the meantime, check out this free preview of Eric’s brand new scene in Catch 22, just released today. It’s Eric’s topping debut; he bottomed for me in our scene together, so I can only imagine what it’s like to be on the other end of that thing. Adam Herst doesn’t have to imagine, though… his facial expression says it all.

Watch the Eric and Adam’s scene in its entirety right here with your Titan membership. Not a member? Sign up now and get instant, unlimited streaming HD video of this and over 5,000 other scenes, plus exclusive digital downloads!

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Titan Makes Trouble: Dirk and I visit my alma mater… 20 years later

A couple of weeks ago, Dirk and I attended CLAW (Cleveland Leather Alliance Weekend) in Cleveland, Ohio. We had a little downtime between promoting our upcoming film Mr. Benson and attending the various CLAW-related events, and Oberlin, my alma mater, is only 30 miles west of where we were staying! Of course we had to go visit! I graduated in 1995 and haven’t been back since 2000, so I was eager to check out my old stomping grounds again, and see how things had changed.

It had changed some, but really not much at all. There are some beautiful new buildings (the new science center and the Conservatory extension are standouts) and a couple of new stores in Oberlin’s tiny downtown, but a bunch of the old standbys are still there… like one of my favorite Chinese restaurants on the planet, the Mandarin! That was, of course, our first stop, for the best sesame chicken on the planet.

The library, named Mudd, seemed like it had been frozen in time. It still had that really cool pile of sofas in the middle of the second floor (I wonder if they’ve ever been cleaned), the Falling Man painting was still on display (although moved to a new location), and the womb chairs were still way too small for me:

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Womb chairs are funny things, definitely a product of the ’60s. (Or maybe the ’70s.) People like to curl up and read, study, or just plain nap; I guess for those people, it’s a kind of regression therapy. I rarely ever used them, though; I didn’t quite fit in them back when I was a student 20 years ago, and I’m an even worse fit now.

But by far the weirdest thing we saw were the infamous Tappan Square boulders. The giant rocks — there are two of them located on the edge of the public square — have traditionally served as giant billboards for the students to paint messages on. Heck, I even once painted one of them to try to get people to come to watch an ice hockey game. I was the treasurer of our club team, the “Plague” … our slogan was “Catch the Plague!” (yeah, I know). Anyway… one of the first things we noticed when we drove into town is that one of the boulders had been painted with the giant message TITAN MAKES TROUBLE… in blue and white, the colors of the TitanMen logo! Dirk and I laughed so hard, amazed at the coincidence… or was it a coincidence? Cue the X-Files music…

It turns out it was a coincidence after all, which we surmised after finding related fliers posted all over the campus. As best as we could tell, the TITAN MAKES TROUBLE message was part of a student’s marketing/social media experiment in which they staged fake clinical trials of a cure-all drug made by a company called Titan Engineering. The student even set up a fake website for the company, complete with marketing materials and testimonials. But the fliers revealed a darker secret… the “company” had covered up some disastrous results during their early trials, and the messages around campus sought to warn prospective trial participants off of the dangerous drug, called Panacea. It was an interesting, if strange, project for the unnamed student to have undertaken, and Dirk and I wish him or her the best.

Food was a big part of my college existence — I’m a real foodie, and I really wanted to revisit my gastronomical past — so later in the day (even though we were still kinda full from lunch) we had a pizza at Lorenzo’s and grabbed a cookie at Gibson’s… both old haunts of mine. (I can’t tell you how many late-night pints of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream I bought at Gibson’s when I was in school.) But since when did the Feve become so yuppified? We used to go there for a plate of super hot wings (called “maso wings”) and a coffee. And now it’s all bistro-y. What gives?

All in all, it was a wonderful day… I’ve posted a bunch of pictures below, including shots of me standing in front of two of my old dorms (Johnson House and Dascomb) and a visit to the Oberlin College weight room… where my physical transformation began. It was such a great trip down memory lane, and I really enjoyed sharing that big part of my life with my hubby. And I still wonder if I’ll ever find a restaurant that serves sesame chicken as delicious as the Mandarin’s.

Probably not.