Monthly Archives: June 2012
One unguarded moment with François Sagat
The above behind-the-scenes clip was filmed last September, when I was working under the direction of François Sagat for the filming of Incubus. Jasun Mark did an excellent job putting this video together. He compiled film from several cameras and created a continuous narrative of the filming process, using both production footage and behind-the-scenes material. It’s awesome!
I wasn’t even aware that this was being filmed, but I’m really glad it was, because it captured something pretty cool that I never thought would see the light of day. There’s a moment during all that wrestling around when — just for a second — François simply can’t contain his laughter. After a couple of seconds, though, he composes himself and returns to the task at hand. That’s a great example of his personality, right there: he’s always the consummate professional, but no matter what’s going on, he always has this great sense of humor lurking just beneath the surface. It’s really great to see it bubble over once in a while. I’m so thrilled that this moment was caught on film.
You can watch the completed version of Incubus Part 1 (which also features Aymeric DeVille, Hunter Marx, Spencer Reed, Shay Michaels, Jimmy Durano, Trenton Ducati and Jessy Ares) click here.
You can also see the scene where I get to show my face (and everything else) in the conclusion of the movie, Incubus 2: The Final Chapter.
TitanMen DVD Pride Sale – 6 DVDs for $59
And now a word from our sponsor – cuz if it weren’t for Titan, I wouldn’t be making hot videos for you guys! 
June marks the anniversary of Stonewall, which is when most cities choose to honor those who fought for equality and celebrate how far we’ve come. We had our Pride celebration here in Boston a couple of weeks ago, but a bunch of them are coming up really soon… I’m looking at you, New York/Chicago/LA/SF! (For a full list of upcoming Pride events all over the world, check out this excellent website.)
If you’re planning on having a party, imagine how fun it would be to throw in your Titan DVD collection and… celebrate. 
Titan’s selling a whole spunkload of DVD and Blu-Ray releases (pick and choose from over 100 titles) for just 6 for $99 or 12 for $179. Check ’em out here! Several of the TitanMen classics (like Gorge and the Horse 5-disc box set) are on sale for an even crazier price of 6 for $59. And if you prefer online streaming you can still subscribe to the Titan Video-on-Demand service for the low price of $14.95 a month for 6 months.
Hope you all have a great Pride, and remember to stay proud all year long!
I took this pic in 2009 on Burlington, VT’s annual Pride Cruise. Pretty cool, huh?
Happy Hump Day!
To celebrate hump day, here’s a video of Dirk and me doing what we love best. I wasn’t even close when I started filming it, but Dirk started pinching my dick tighter and tighter between his asscheeks and… well, you’ll see. (iPhone, iPad, and Android users can see the video by following this link.)
Also check out our 51 minute scene in Loud and Nasty, now available in streaming video (with a free preview).
One sleepless night
As my devastatingly sexy hubby and I close in on 9 months together, I’m starting to get a little nostalgic. I’ve already written about how the two of us met, but with Dirk 3,000 miles away right now (doing a photo shoot for Mr. S Leather) and me having a bit more free time than usual, I thought I’d take a moment to continue the story.
I have difficulty sleeping when I travel… or rather, when I’m about to travel. I get inordinately stressed out when I pack, focusing too much on unnecessary minutiae while overlooking major details (such as, oh, remembering to bring my wallet or passport). I stress about getting to the airport, which once left me so distracted that I actually locked my keys in my car at the Park-N-Ride lot on my way to San Francisco to film Command Performance. I stress even when there’s no reason to stress: if I have an afternoon or evening flight and I’m all ready to go, I can still barely focus on my work during the day. Needless to say, the anticipation of travel is not my friend. (Oddly, once I’m actually seated on the plane I’m perfectly fine.)
Gay Bowl XI in
Houston, TX
I didn’t expect him to say yes.
Rather than answering “Oh, I’d love to, but it’s so last minute…” or “That would be too expensive” or “Thanks, but I have plans,” Dirk responded with “Hmmmm… what an interesting idea!” He had an uncharacteristically free weekend with only one lunch date that he could postpone, and he’d just gotten paid for his work at Folsom so he had a little extra cash. I jumped online and found a great last-minute fare from Chicago to Houston. And the next thing you knew, we were together in Texas.
And it was electric.
Thank goodness he didn’t arrive until the very end of my very last game (he got to see me in a grand total of two plays) because I might have been too distracted to play. We went back to our hotel room… and we didn’t leave it for 24 hours. The sex, needless to say, was incendiary. It was unlike anything I’d ever experienced before. That man can hit some pretty amazing spots (I get hard just thinking about it!), and some of those sounds he made when I topped him… well, I’d never heard anything like it. But there was more to it than that. We were really bonding. In the space between our hot fuck sessions, we talked about love, art, music, politics, poetry, douching techniques… anything and everything. We were just so comfortable with each other. We cuddled on the couch watching Don Hertzfeldt shorts (“My spoon is too big!”) and episodes of QI. Finally, exhausted from a sleepless night, at 7 am we walked over to Le Peep restaurant on Westheimer Road, hand in hand, knowing we’d finally found each other.
Don Hertzfeldt’s “Rejected”
It was far and away the strongest connection with another human being I’d ever felt. And my flag football teammates noticed. When it came time to take the team photo, we were supposed to meet at the hotel pool at 1:30 pm, but I didn’t get the message until 5 minutes beforehand (I’d missed the original messages because Dirk and I had been “busy” in our hotel room). Just before photo time, I got a text from one of my teammates:
We hastily pulled on our pants and ran to the pool, somewhat red-faced but happy.
Our last day in Houston was bittersweet. My flight back to Boston left about an hour before Dirk’s left for Chicago, so he was able to see me off at the gate (I can’t remember the last time anyone did that, what with FAA restrictions about who can and can’t pass security). We were pretty sad… but we both knew that this wasn’t goodbye. It was more of a “see you soon.” Although we officially consider the day we first met (September 22, 2011, during Folsom weekend) to be our anniversary, one could argue that it was that moment, standing in Terminal A of George Bush Intercontinental Airport, somehow knowing that this was only the beginning, that our life together truly began.
Dirk and I say goodbye see you soon in Houston
More details of our adventures to come…
Conquering my fears
I’ve always had three irrational fears: electrical current, hot wax, and balloons (don’t ask). As you can see in this behind-the-scenes clip, the Loud and Nasty scene that Dirk and I filmed went a long way to helping me conquer fear #1. I’m hoping my next Titan Rough film will somehow involve hot wax — like in my buddy Shay Michaels’ hot scene with Leo Forte in Submit — so I can address fear #2. Fear #3, though, is probably going to be with me for life… unless Titan decides to make a sequel to Funhouse.
Check out the full 51 minute scene here.
My NSFW IML Scrapbook
My friends in Montreal have a nickname for me: “Kid Kodak.” It’s true… I take a lot of pictures, and my time at IML was no exception. You’ve already seen the racy videos I filmed that weekend; now you can check out my photos too. Enjoy! (For more pics, check out the IML recap over at Manhunt Daily, and also the pics from the live show that Dirk and I performed at Steamworks.)
Etiquette for the Uncouth: The DLNQNT Interview
Delinquent, indeed! While this interview originally dropped on DLNQNT.com over a week ago, I’ve been so caught up in IML madness that I’ve been unable to post it until now. Sorry about that! Anyway, back in May, the fine folks at DLNQNT contacted me and Dirk for an interview; they asked us the very same questions, which we answered independently. My responses are below; you can read my “raunchy pup’s” responses over on the DLNQNT site to see just how compatible we really are!
ETIQUETTE FOR THE UNCOUTH:
Falling in love with Jesse Jackman
Originally posted on May 22, 2012 at DLNQNT.com
To help us navigate the confusing world of love, lust, and what to wear, we’ve tapped a few of your favorite adult film stars for some… direction.
This week we caught up with Dirk Caber’s other half — who we heard so much about last week — Boston sweetheart Jesse Jackman. He’s made quite the dirty bird launch in the past year with and without the Mrs. It’s hard to say what’s more raunchy — their time onscreen or their schmoopie twitter messages.
DLNQNT: One could assume you get hit on a lot; what’s a gentle letdown for an unwanted advance? Jesse Jackman: Dirk taught me this one, actually. When I’m with him, I’ll quickly introduce him as my partner. Tone of voice means everything here; Dirk’s absolutely right when he says this can just as easily be used an invitation as well. When I’m flying solo — which happens a lot, as Dirk and I live in different cities — I’ll work his name into the conversation, which has a similar effect… and if the advance is in fact wanted, it’s a simple way of informing the other person that it’s not going anywhere beyond having a little fun.
Manscaping — how much is too much? And how do you get your partner to clean up his act in hard to reach places? JJ: The only situation in which I’ll condone manscaping is if birds are starting to nest in your chest hair. Then, perhaps, a light trim on the minimum setting is called for. Otherwise… manscaping is hairesy!
What’s your ultimate dating deal-breaker? JJ: Oh, that’s an easy one. The ultimate deal-breaker is an inability to communicate. If I find myself constantly trying to drive the conversation forward without any contribution from the other side, it’s probably not going to work.
Forget Mars and Venus; it’s been said that there are five languages of love regardless of sex and orientation — which is the most important? JJ: Continuing with the connection theme, I’d have to say quality time is the most important, although physical touch is a close second. I try to be very careful around the “acts of service” piece, though. If one’s not mindful, that could easily slip into a tit-for-tat scenario: “I did this for you. Now you owe me.” I’ve seen relationships fracture because of that, and I’m careful not to emulate that behavior in mine.
Through the courting process, how do you recognize a keeper from the background noise? JJ: It’s a feeling; fortunately I’ve come to recognize it. I feel a certain lightness in my chest and a nervous excitement when I look at the other person, and it sort of moves upward towards my neck and face. That sounds weird, I know, but it has always been a portent of a strong connection… and nine months into our relationship, I still feel that way every time I even think about Dirk.
What’s the best way to keep your boudoir fresh? JJ: This may sound silly, but a number of years ago an ex-boyfriend gave me a scented spray that he bought from Bleu Lavande, an enormous lavender farm in western Québec. A couple spritzes of that, and my room smells like a meadow… no matter what manner of debauchery had been stinking up the place beforehand.
Jesse Jackman can be found on Facebook, Twitter, and writes regularly on his blog (NSFW). You can also catch him in person in Chicago this weekend for IML.