The Bear Mais interview (English version)

The other day, the Brazilian magazine Bear Mais published an article called “Alegrias, Dramas, e Sucessos dos Atores Pornôs” (“The Joys, Dramas, and Successes of Porn Stars”) that features interviews with me, Ale Tedesco, Matteo Valentine, and Jeff Stronger. Here’s the English version of my interview; the full article translation (with all four interviews) is coming soon to the Bear Mais website. “Obrigado pela leitura!” (Thanks for reading!)


When did you begin your career in porn?

I started working in porn in the summer of 2011. I had never even thought about doing it, but then I met Hunter Marx and his partner Ethan Anders — both Titan models — over the summer and they were such good guys (and the sex was so good) that I decided it could be fun to try. When Titan Jackman 05contacted me a month later to see if I wanted to film with them, I thought about it for a couple of weeks, decided it was worth trying, and agreed. Three weeks later I was in San Francisco filming my first scene for a film called Surveillance… and by complete coincidence, my scene partner was Hunter Marx! It was a lot of fun. after we’d finished filming, Titan offered me an exclusive contract, which I accepted. I’ve been having the time of my life ever since!

Did you have a problem when your family discovered your profession? Do you have a good relationship with them?

Last year, my mother found out that I make porn. She accidentally saw my bank account statement with a deposit from Titan Media, wondered what it was, and googled it… and I was on the front page of Titan’s website. She kept it to herself for several months before we finally talked about it, but when we finally did talk, she was great. She had been upset at first, but then she read my blog and saw my Facebook page and realized that working in porn had made me so happy. She not a huge fan of the idea, but she’s been incredibly supportive. (If you want to read the whole story of how she found out, check out my blog post at http://jessejackman.xxx/2012/10/04/she-knows.) I’m also happy to say that my family has expanded as a result of my porn work. Shortly after I started working with Titan, I met my partner Dirk Caber, a fellow actor who has worked with Titan, COLT, Kink.com and many other studios. We both Jackman 01worked at the Titan booth at the Folsom Street Fair in 2011 and have been together ever since. We’ve even filmed two Titan scenes together! He’s a truly amazing man, and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him. To read the whole story of how we met, check out http://jessejackman.xxx/category/my-porn-romance.

Many people wonder about what it’s like to be in porn. What do you think about this line of work?

I’m very passionate about making porn, as I am about most things in life. When you watch one of my scenes, everything you see is real; my reactions are genuine, the passion intense, and the connection sincere. When I connect with my scene partner, I lose myself in the experience, and simply focus on the pleasure and the intensity of the moment. If it looks like I’m really into the scene, it’s because I am. For me, making porn is a powerful and positive form of sexual self-expression. I use to be sort of reserved, but the films have really built my sexual confidence and encouraged me to open up and try new things. And Titan’s studio is a safe environment to try new things with established experts. I first tried watersports on the set of Surveillance, for example. Also, I never thought I’d like electro play, but when I was first introduced to it in the Titan Rough film Loud and Nasty, I actually really enjoyed it. I even bought a violet wand and have been using it at home.

Jackman 02Many people think that all porn stars are escorts. Is that true? What is the difference?

Very few porn actors work in the industry full-time. The average porn “career” lasts about two years, and most of us have other jobs. Some porn actors also work as escorts, but there are plenty of other occupations: I know corporate executives, health professionals, dancers, personal trainers, store managers, and even a meteorologist who also works in porn. The point is that it’s very difficult to get enough work to make a living exclusively as an porn actor. Escorting is a perfectly reasonable way to support oneself outside of the industry, but the important thing to keep in mind is that it’s not the only way. We’re not all escorts.

How do you get a hard-on when the director and production assistants are watching you?

I really get turned on by connection. When I work with a scene partner I like, and I’m genuinely attracted to them, it’s easy to get and stay excited about having sex with him… even if there are lots of people watching. And so far I’ve really liked everyone I’ve worked with. Titan’s stable of porn stars are HOT and have all been very easy to connect with, so staying hard is easy.

Is your relationship with the producers always friendly, or do uncomfortable situations occur?

I’ve only worked with Titan, of course, but everyone at the studio has been so professional and so respectful; they truly are a pleasure to work with. First and foremost, the guys want to make sure that the performers are comfortable. I’ve never been asked to do anything that I feel uncomfortable doing. And my interaction with the staff is great; they’re serious about making the best product they possibly can, but they also have a lot of fun doing it. Titan is like a big family… one which, as a Titan exclusive, I’m honored and proud to be a part of.

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9 replies
  1. Ben Robbins
    Ben Robbins says:

    You truly have a great Mom…so understanding and happy that you are happy. When you are discussing your sexual partners in front of the directors I have had to put myself in your place and ask myself “Could I do it?” I think you hit it right on the nail. It IS easy when you are attracted to the other man. But I would have to put up a mental block to keep myself up. I would not want to think of how many guys are going to see me in the video and then deflate because of anxiety. I am glad you find it easy.

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    • Jesse
      Jesse says:

      It’s easier when you think of it as performing in front of 4 people: Your scene partner, the director, the assistant director, and the production assistant. The rest is just a bunch of equipment. You and the scene partner are in it together, of course, and the staff have seen it all before… so it’s actually easier than you might think. The actual release of the scene is so far in the future (usually several months) that it’s sort of easy not to think about the final production. There’s a natural level of detachment from that.

      Hopefully someday I’ll have to worry about 5 people: the director, the AD, the production assistant, and TWO scene partners. Always wanted to do a 3-way on camera! 😉

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  2. Pete
    Pete says:

    Nice article and great responses on your part to the questions.

    I would think that performing on a porn set–where as you say, the production staff has seen it all, including the performance anxiety everybody experiences from time to time, and handles it professionally–would be much easier than to perform in a club in front of a bunch of strangers. I know that you enjoy doing that as well–you and Dirk are both exhibitionists (in the best sense of the term)–so the porn is surely a cup-cake in comparison.

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    • Jesse
      Jesse says:

      Doesn’t stop be from being nervous in front of a crowd, though! I actually try to block them out of my mind and focus on Dirk (or whomever I’m appearing with at the time).

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  3. Mike
    Mike says:

    Hey, Jessie. I’m reading your blog for the first time, having just learned about you via a shot posted by Brad Kalvo on his FB timeline. Have to tell you I’ve enjoyed every minute of it. Not just your photos, but also what you share in the posts. I’ve bookmarked your site and look forward to coming back on a regular basis. Hope you guys are having a great weekend!

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    • Jesse
      Jesse says:

      Hey! And thanks! Yeah, Brad’s a wonderful guy. Wish we’d had more time before he had to leave for Connecticut. Thanks for reading… I find writing to be really therapeutic, and I’m glad you enjoy reading it. 🙂 Hope to hear more from you soon! -JJ

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