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TitanMen releases HARDWOOD… Six HOT outdoor sex scenes!

It’s a big week for my hot sexy hubby! Hot on the heels of our scene together in SWEAT (watch a free preview here), Dirk appears in TitanMen’s all-new, all-star compilation HARDWOOD: TitanMen in the Great Outdoors. It features six of Titan’s best scenes that capture red-hot outdoor sex… and check out this crazy good cast:



TitanMen Exclusives François Sagat, Dean Flynn, and Dario Beck
with
Jessy Ares – Billy Berlin – Marco Blaze – “Carlos” – Darius Falke – Dirk Jager – Tyler Peter
Spencer Reed – Miguel Sabroso – Glenn Santoro
and, of course, my hubby
Dirk Caber!

It’s a pretty great compilation, especially if you like it dans la nature and au naturel. (I love having sex outside, by the way… if there’s ever a Hardwood Part 2, I hope it’ll include my scene with Anthony London in Scruffy. )

I’ve posted a free XXX preview from HARDWOOD above and loads of promotional pics below . You can watch or download all six scenes right now with your Titan membership. Not a member? Sign up now and get instant access and unlimited streaming to thousands of scenes for as little as $0.27 a day. This compilation also makes a great collector’s item, and you can buy it on DVD for just $19 in the Titan Store.

Anyway, on to the pics… loads and loads and loads of pics. (Mmmmm… loads…….)

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Sweat it out with me and Dirk… SWEAT scene 3 has arrived!!!!

At long last, Dirk and I are thrilled to announce the release of our brand new scene! SWEAT is our fourth scene together for Titan, joining Loud and Nasty, Extra Firm, and Foul Play in what we hope is an ever-growing list of films. We love performing for you guys, and really hope you enjoy this latest scene, straight from the TitanMen locker room!

Check out the 3-minute NSFW trailer above and a ton of promo pics below , then watch or download the entire 34-minute scene right now with your Titan membership. Not a member? SIGN UP NOW to watch this and almost 6,000 more scenes from TitanMen.com, TitanRough.com, and JoeGageMen.com instantly. (Note that Titan’s family of websites is the only place you can find SWEAT or any other TitanMen production!)

SWEAT is also available on DVD from the TitanMen Store.

Here’s the official scene description, courtesy of the TitanMen website:

Horned up from watching Hunter fuck Troy, Dirk Caber — his boner pitching a tent in his shorts — gets led to the lockers by beefy Jesse Jackman. They kiss, rubbing each other’s hairy muscles. Jesse pulls down Dirk’s shorts to release his aching cock. Jesse sucks it deep, tonguing the underside. Dirk returns the favor, working up the bulge in Jesse’s jockstrap before getting fed. Dirk rubs Jesse’s massive muscles, sucking him deep before Jesse bends down for a kiss. Jesse rubs his dick on Dirk’s salt-and-pepper beard, the sucker hard as a rock. Dirk bends Jesse over the bench, fucking the moaner from behind. Jesse sits down on the top, who grabs the bottom’s jock ass and fucks him fast from below. Dirk rubs the bottom’s nip, Jesse’s big dick grazing the top’s stomach. Jesse gets fucked on his back, Dirk stroking him as he fucks — a memorable aerial shot capturing Dirk’s dick disappearing inside the bottom’s hole before the two squirt.

Hope you guys like the scene… please let us know what you think!

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Matters of the heart

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I’ve been debating whether or not to write this post for a while. At first I didn’t think the topic was relevant, but now that it’s started to affect my behavior I figured it’s worth addressing. Anyway, about two months ago Dirk and I had gone out for sushi with a few friends of ours, a weekly ritual. After dinner I stood up to go to the men’s room and didn’t feel quite right. It felt like my heart was racing, even though I’d been sitting still for over an hour. I had a little trouble finding my pulse, so I asked Dirk to do it. He didn’t feel anything unusual, and after a few minutes I felt normal again, so I shrugged it off and ate my green tea ice cream.

The next day I went to Starbucks to work and write in my blog… another daily ritual. After a couple hours, I got up to refill my coffee and again felt… off. So I took my pulse again, paying much closer attention this time. And this time the rhythm really freaked me out:

thump…. thump…. thump……… thumpthumpthumpthumpthump………………… thump…. thump………
thump…. thump…. thump……… thumpthumpthumpthumpthump………………… thump…. thump………
thump…. thump…. thump……… thumpthumpthumpthumpthump………………… thump…. thump………

I double-checked… then triple checked. No doubt about it. I didn’t feel light-headed or anything… just weird… a little “fluttery,” sort of like the feeling when I get nervous. I went back to my seat and again asked Dirk (who was with me) to check my pulse. No mistaking this time; my heart was acting really weird.

“I don’t feel dizzy or anything,” I said to Dirk. “What do you think… should we go to the ER?”

“I dunno, probably. Couldn’t hurt.”

“Yeah, I guess we’d better go.”

So, feeling fine other than having a freaky rhythm, I went to the ER. (Dirk drove.) The triage nurse immediately sat me down in a wheelchair. “Protocol,” she said. “so you won’t hit your head if you pass out.” Then she hooked me up to a heart monitor.20140417 Heart Monitor

“Looks like a-fib,” she observed.

“What’s that?” I asked.

“Atrial fibrillation. Not too bad though, you’re only up in the 180s.”

She was referring to my heart rate. Atrial fibrillation, or “a-fib” as it’s commonly called, is a condition in which one of the atria — the upper chambers of the heart, in my case the left atrium — isn’t receiving the proper nerve impulses, so it ends up “twitching” at a rate of up to three hundred times a minute. This disrupts blood flow to the rest of the body. The heart tries to compensate — hence the irregular rhythm — but cardiac output is typically reduced by about 20%. This means you get tired easily and can feel a bit light-headed. Some people live with a-fib for the rest of their lives, while some people flip in and out of rhythm. People with a-fib also have a five-times-greater risk of stroke; the reason for this is that blood can collect in the atrium and form a clot, and if the clot is released into the bloodstream, it can block blood flow to the brain.

Some scary shit.

The good news was that I wasn’t in any immediate danger (an ultrasound revealed that I hadn’t formed any clots… more on that in a sec). Since there was a chance that I would go back to normal “sinus” rhythm on my own, the ER docs put me on a beta-blocker (which limits the heart’s rate and can encourage it to go back to NSR) and sent me home with instructions to come back on Friday for a rather serious procedure… cardioversion.

Cardioversion is pretty intense. First they do an echocardiogram to make sure that you haven’t formed any clots in your heart. If you don’t have any, then they sedate you and — get this — shock your heart back into rhythm. I had two concerns about this:

1. Before they shock you, they shave off patches of your chest hair… and I had a gig in Kansas City the next week.

2. THEY WERE GOING TO SHOCK MY FUCKING HEART.

My appointment was at 8 am on Friday morning, April 18, less than 36 hours after I’d gone into a-fib. I stopped eating at midnight the previous day (as instructed) and went to bed nervous as all hell. But when I woke up, I felt different. Stronger, more energy. So I checked my pulse.

I’d reverted to normal sinus rhythm on my own. Phew.

I went to my appointment anyway (just in case), and the docs confirmed my self-diagnosis. The beta-blocker had done its job beautifully. No need for the cardiac echo, and no need for cardioversion. I left the hospital about an hour later, unshocked and with chest hair intact.

My cardiologist — I have a cardiologist now, which is kinda strange — thinks that I had something called isolated a-fib… that is, it’s not likely to ever recur. (Thankfully, it means I can keep making porn!) He’s not sure what triggered it… my understanding is that athletes can develop a-fib as the heart grows stronger and nerves have trouble adapting. Dehydration is also one of the known causes, so maybe the salt in the soy sauce (plus the fact that I’d just done an hour of cardio before sushi) or the diuretic effect of the coffee had something to do with it. So I’m trying to cut back on sodium (easy) and curtail the coffee intake (not so easy). I have to say, though, that I’m now acutely aware of my heart rate… an effect that one of my nurses called the “ticking clock” effect: once you notice the tick of a clock in the room, as she explained it, you’re aware of it all the time. And I am. That’s a good thing, I guess.

I also have a couple of new medications. My doc prescribed something called propafenone, in keeping with a newer form of reactive treatment called “pill in a pocket.” I carry it with me everywhere; I’m supposed to take it at the first sign of an arrhythmia as it’s been shown to help with the immediate conversion back to normal sinus rhythm. If it doesn’t work, then I’ll head to the ER for cardioversion.

The second medication — and the reason for this blog post — is the beta-blocker, which I’m continuing to take. My cardiologist prescribed metoprolol tartrate, otherwise known as Lopressor, as a safety net; I’m supposed to take it for three months just to make sure I don’t go back into a-fib. It’s been a little over two months now. A few people — including, I suspect, many of you who are reading this post — might have noticed that I haven’t been contributing to the blog or to Facebook much over the last couple of months. There’s a good reason for this. About 5% of patients on Lopressor experience depression as a significant side-effect. I appear to be one of those one-in-twenty. My energy and enthusiasm are way, way down, and I’m getting discouraged by it. The things I normally love — writing and lifting and hanging out with friends and being social and stuff — have been a real struggle for me. IML, for example, was a lot tougher than I let on (but I got through it). Dirk and I are bickering more than usual. My sex drive is down, too, which really sucks (I’m usually super-duper horny, but not much at all lately). And this whole ordeal has placed me in intimate contact with my own mortality… always a sobering thought.

So the reason I’m writing this is to apologize for my relative lack of sociability over the last couple of months. The end is in sight, though… I only have a month to go on my beta-blocker regimen, and I just asked my doctor if I can either curtail the dose or switch to a different medication. So please… bear with me! I’ll be back to normal in no time, I promise.

A couple of final thoughts:

1. If you ever feel “off” or have any questions about your health, please for heaven’s sake talk to your doctor. I’m a stubborn SOB, and part of me wanted to go to the gym instead of going to the ER. I’m glad I didn’t, because now I know about my condition and am doing something about it. Who knows, if I didn’t get it checked out, I might have blown a clot. Knowing is better than not knowing.

2. Dirk, as always, has been wonderful through all of this. I haven’t been myself since April 16th… far from it. I’ve been kind of a wreck because of the depression brought on by the beta-blocker. But Dirk’s been right here with me the entire time, taking me to the doctor and sitting with me at the hospital and toughing it through my mood swings at home. I hate putting him through this, perhaps more than any other part of the whole ordeal… but he’s done so much for me, and had the patience of a saint. This’ll all be behind us pretty soon, thank goodness.

So thank you Dirk, and thank you everybody, for sticking around while I get through this. I mean that… from the bottom of my heart.

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Your first look at SWEAT scene 2 with Alex Graham and Matt Stevens

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And now… scene 2 of the TitanMen’s new film “SWEAT” starring Matt Stevens (whom Dirk and I are proud to have referred to Titan in the first place; he and Dirk have even shot a scene together) and superstud Alex Graham in his TitanMen debut! The XXX preview of their scene is at the top of this post, and a bunch of exclusive pics from the scene are below. The scene is now streaming in HD on the TitanMen website, and is also available for immediate download. Not a Titan subscriber? Sign up for instant access for as little as $8.25 a month. (“SWEAT” is also available for purchase on DVD.)

Remember, my locker room scene in with my hubby Dirk Caber comes out in just one week!