Composer Dirk 1

Classical Caber (Victory Edition): Piano Miniature No. 10, “Gracieux”

The last 48 hours have been unbelievable. What started as an idea during a trip to a piano store a little over a week ago turned into a whirlwind fundraising effort in an attempt to get Dirk the piano he so badly needs to start composing again. To be honest, Dirk and I expected to maybe get a few bucks from you guys here and there, and every little bit would have helped a lot. But to raise over $5,000 in just over 24 hours? Dirk and I are floored. Positively floored. And moved beyond belief. Thank you so, so much… this is really going to change Dirk’s life.

Dirk said that if we reached the $5,000 mark, he would share an original composition that he’s never shared before. And here it is… Dirk’s Piano Miniature No. 10: Gracieux, the tenth in a series of 24 piano miniatures, none longer than about 3 minutes. He composed this particular miniature in the style of a sicilienne, a form that was first used for arias in Baroque operas and is meant to evoke a pastoral mood. I love how it draws you in; you can really get lost in its texture, but then at the end you can’t help but have a big smile on your face:


I know that “gracieux” technically means “graceful”, but in this case I like to think it means “grateful” … which pretty much sums up how Dirk and I both feel right now.

While we’ve already reached our $5,000 target, it’s not too late to get Dirk’s music on CD (some of which, like this sicilienne, he’s never shared before), a signed score, framed manuscript, or personalized composition! Just head on over to http://gofundme.com/piano-for-dirk and choose which option you’d like. (By the way, the pianos we’re looking at cost between $10,000 and $15,000. We deliberately set the fundraising bar kinda low because we didn’t want to lean on you guys too much, and we’re going to find a way to finance the rest, but every penny you contribute will still help a ton.)

Again… Dirk and I are completely blown away. We love you guys!

In Bed
 

15 replies
  1. Kaye P Hallows
    Kaye P Hallows says:

    You two inspire me on so many levels *ahem*, it’s truly a gift to have the chance to help provide a little fuel for your fire. I loved this piece you shared with us and look forward to what flows from your new instrument! Best of luck to you, Dirk!

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  2. Tim
    Tim says:

    Nothing like waking up on a lazy Sunday morning to see a pic of you two hot Daddies in bed together while listening to an original from Dirk. Splendid way to start the day. Good luck with the piano purchase Can’t wait to hear what else Dirk composes.

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  3. Fain
    Fain says:

    Wow, I didn’t know pianos were so expensive. I read your March 12, 2014 post and was dismayed to hear about Dirk’s struggles with his waning creativity. So I’m glad to hear he’s finally getting a helping hand. 🙂

    On another note, I always assumed Jesse Jackman was some sort of alias for you but apparently it’s your real name. Do most models in the industry use their real name? Do you call each other by your actual names or by your porn names? Is Dirk actually named Dirk? It’s an unusual name so I assumed it was fake too.

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    • Jesse
      Jesse says:

      Hi Fain,

      As I’m learning, you get what you pay for with these things. Dirk has been shopping around has found a model he really likes… the Yamaha AvantGrand N2 hybrid. We looked at cheaper models (the N1, the NU1) and a much more expensive one (the N3), but the N2 has a lot of advantages over the cheaper models (better samples, more MIDI channels, weighted keys that feel more like an acoustic piano… at least I think I’m remembering those right), but is relatively portable and will fit nicely into our crowded apartment (unlike the N3, plus the N3 is waaaaay more expensive). Dirk’s a professional musician and needs a professional instrument… and he’s going to be using this for years, probably decades, so it’s really important that he get a good one. Only problem is that it lists for $14,999! Piano dealers often offer incentives, though, and we’re also keeping our eyes peeled for a used one. If need be, we’ll finance what we need to… but $15K would definitely have been out of reach. The contributions people have been making — over $5,000 so far! — won’t cover the entire cost, but it’s absolutely made it possible for him to get it (with some creative financing), and we’re forever grateful for that!

      As to your other question… most industry performers don’t use their real name. In fact, I think I only know one person who does. And when we’re on set… well, what we call each other kinda depends. There are some people for whom the porn name just kinda works, so we use that… and in other cases we use their real name. It’s about 50/50. You assumed wrong, by the way… Jesse Jackman isn’t my real name. I don’t think my real name is particularly catchy-sounding, and besides, when I was first starting out in porn I wasn’t sure if I’d run into trouble with my day job, or family, or friends or whatnot (I’ve known a few people to be on the receiving end of some less-than-kind reactions when people find out they’re in porn). That’s why I decided to add a layer of anonymity to protect myself from any problems. No such problems have materialized, of course… my day job knows about my industry work and is fine with it, as are my friends and family. Why do I keep the name, then? I’ve build a brand around it, and a reputation of sorts. The name represents the industry, and the outreach, side of my life, and I’m cool with that division. It’s become like a pen name. “Jesse Jackman” and I are the same person, of course, but I still find it nice to have the second name. And besides, when people say they know me, I can instantly tell where they know me from. Jesse, however, is my real first name… I wanted to bring at least a piece of my day-to-day life into my new-found porn adventures when I started nearly four years ago. As for Dirk… he uses an alias too. But when he starts releasing his music (and when his budding acting career hopefully takes off… check out https://www.facebook.com/MrBensonTheMovie), he’s planning on using his real name… so stay tuned for that.

      Hope this answered your questions! It’s all going to make a good blog post one day too… I think I’ll call it “What’s in a (Porn) Name?”

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      • Fain
        Fain says:

        That’d be an interesting post to read. I’d love to see it.

        It’s been over a year since your old post about the Facebook effect. I hope things have gotten better for you guys since.

        Your facebook page is gone, but I recall some negative comments about the piano fundraiser on it. I know you don’t need to be told this but just in case you have second thoughts: there is nothing shameful about cooperative support, and clearly everyone who donated felt this way. Without it, we’d be an every-man-for-himself society.

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        • Jesse
          Jesse says:

          Thanks… not sure it’ll be an easy one to write — it seems like a big step — but I think it’s worth writing. I’ve already come out twice… the first time was being gay; second time was telling my mom about porn. This would feel like the third time, I think.

          And thanks again… yeah, Dirk is reminding me of that all the time. My page is still there, by the way: http://facebook.com/jessejackman should take you to it. 🙂

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  4. Mark
    Mark says:

    Thanks for sharing this little piece with us. I taught music in schools for 31 years and was constantly writing and arranging for different groups. I know what it takes out of you and finding the inspiration to continue can be hard. I hope that when Dirk has the piano in front of him he can get back into the “zone”. Thanks again.

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  5. Stuart Dummit
    Stuart Dummit says:

    Beautiful miniature. As I’ve said in different forums before, you and Dirk are role models, and, yes, heroes. Living a portion of your lives publicly and demonstrating breadth to the human experience. Thanks for that. On another note, I’m pretty jazzed that there will be a CD of Dirk’s music, and I hope the new piano will contribute to more in the future. Cheers to the both of you and thanks for making it all real.

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  6. Josh
    Josh says:

    Thanks for sharing the work, Piano Miniatures No.10. It’s beautiful. Dirk, you really are a very talented musician. Jesse, you are a very wonderful husband. I wish you both the best and I really hope Dirk’s career as a musician takes off.

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