Dirk Caber premieres two original compositions at second annual “Classic Meets Fetish” concert in Berlin (VIDEO)

Back in September, my hubby Dirk Caber — credited under his real name Jack Parton — performed several of his original compositions at the second annual “Classic Meets Fetish” concert in Berlin, in association with Folsom Europe. The video from his performance just been made available! (See above, or watch it on YouTube.) Although it’s been edited down a bit, it still gives you a great idea for the feel of the concert. Enormous thanks to Ron Berlin for shooting and editing this great video!!

Dirk premiered two all-new pieces during his 25-minute programme. The first, his cello sonata, was written expressly for this event and features cellist Leather Paul; it begins at the 1:48 mark in the video. The second, starting at 9:06, is a barcarole, a traditional folk song sung by Venetian gondoliers. Dirk’s barcarole is especially dear to me, as it’s one of the first pieces of music that he’s written for me to learn on our beautiful new piano. (The one that our fans helped us buy… for which we remain eternally grateful!) I’ve gotten to the point where I’m almost ready to play it, but I’ve heard it countless times and it still brings tears to my eyes.

One other note about the video… there’s an awkward moment at the 1:28 mark where Paul, in the middle of Brahms’ cello sonata, abruptly gets up and leaves. It later became apparent that he’d broken a string and had gone to get a different cello. In the moment, though, the audience — not to mention pianist Greg Winn, and Dirk who was turning Greg’s pages — were very confused. But Greg’s response to the awkward silence was absolutely brilliant.

The first “Classic Meets Fetish” concert in 2015 sold close to 300 tickets, and this year’s sold over 800. Next year’s edition will be held in an even larger venue, and the date has already been announced: September 7, 2017. Visit classic-meets-fetish.de for details. Dirk will be there, and I hope to be too. See you there!

Here’s a gallery of photos from this year’s concert, courtesy of Jens Schommer and queer.de… and if you want to hear more of Dirk’s music, check out his SoundCloud page.


A much-needed new Classical Caber: Morceau No. 8

I think we could all use a little more beauty in our lives, especially after the ugliness of this year’s presidential election (and the potential for what might follow). With that in mind, here is Dirk’s “Morceau No. 8”, the eighth in a series of 12 piano morceaux, none longer than about 3 minutes. Here’s Dirk’s description of the piece:

openquoteOnce subtitled ‘Mysterious’, this composition was the result of an accidental handfall on the piano keyboard one day. The sonority had a distant, rarefied feel; I had a vision of an empty snow-covered field, distant mountains, a misted sun in a grey sky. This piano figuration appears in different guises in a few pieces of mine, notably in the accompaniment to my thematically related song ‘Mysterious Night’ for bass and piano, set to a sonnet by Joseph Blanco White:

Mysterious night, when our first parent knew
Thee from report divine, and knew thy name,
Did he not tremble for this lovely frame,
This glorious canopy of light and blue?
Yet, ‘neath a curtain of translucent dew,
Bathed in the rays of the great setting flame,
Hesperus with host of heaven came,
And lo! creation widened in man’s view!
Who could have thought such darkness lay concealed
Within thy beams, O sun, or who could find
Whilst leaf and insect stood revealed
That to such countless orbs you made us blind?
Then why do men shun death with anxious strife?
If light can thus deceive, wherefore not life?

I think Morceau No. 8 captures a bit of the uncertainty that our country faces right now, and yet provides a certain much-needed peacefulness. Dirk and I hope you enjoy this brief respite from our crazy, unpredictable world.

To hear more of Dirk’s original compositions, check out his SoundCloud page. If you’d like a copy of Dirk’s music on CD — including some exclusive tracks that aren’t on his SoundCloud page — you can get one through our GoFundMe page. (The GoFundMe has officially concluded, but if you’d still like to order an autographed CD, we’d be delighted to send you one!)

Video: Jasun Mark, Jason Vario, Alex Graham, and I do Lady Gaga!

After an exhausting week of shooting our new Jasun Mark-directed movie — which comes out in November — we decided to have some fun in the car on the way to the gym. And nothing says fun like Porn Star Karaoke! In the car we’ve got Jasun Mark (driving), amazing new Titan man Jason Vario (the new guy in the passenger seat), Alex Graham (behind Jason), and yours truly of course. We ran through the song five times, Jasun edited it that night, and he posted it the next morning. Hope you enjoy it!

Everybody has been asking about Jason Vario. He’s new, he’s Canadian, he’s amazing, and he’s one of the sweetest guys I’ve ever been on set with. We haven’t filmed a scene together — yet — but we had great off-camera chemistry and I really hope we get a chance to work together someday!!

Here are a bunch of screen captures from the video. Some of the expressions on our faces — Jasun’s especially — are priceless. Be sure to check out Jasun’s other “Porn Star Karaoke” videos, including this one with Scott Hunter and my hubby Dirk!

Yup, at the end of the video, I did flip my phone into the trunk. Check out Alex’s reaction:

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Oh, and the fuzzy dice are a nod to the original Lady Gaga video. My idea, thank you very much.

VIDEO: Dirk is writing songs for me! And I’m playing them! (Sorta.)

Dirk has started writing music for me! Specifically, he’s started writing a “songbook” for me as I start re-learning how to play piano, which I haven’t played since I was a kid. Here’s me trying to play the first of them… well, the first half of it, anyway. I’m still working on learning the second half… it’s really hard!

The song is a “barcarole” which, according to Wikipedia, is a traditional Italian folk song that was commonly sung by Venetian gondoliers in the 19th century. (“Barca” is Italian for “boat.”) Hopefully I’ll be able to play the whole thing soon… and a little bit faster than what you see here. To be continued…

Tame Your Man: Adam Tendler & Dirk Caber’s piano/bondage concert

Composer Nathan Hall’s Tame Your Man is a “living music sculpture”, a theatrical work composed for piano, rope bondage artist, narrator, and electronics. The piece premiered in November 2012 in Boulder, Colorado and has since seen several more performances with the NYC-based group Tenth Intervention. Over the course of the work, the pianist gets progressively more bound to his instrument, and the piano writing purposefully reduces the range of motion of the hands on the keyboard. By the last movement, only the outermost keys can be reached.

The above performance, which took place at Peabody Conservatory in Baltimore on January 8, 2016, is a condensed version of the piece that was included as part of this year’s New Music Gathering festival. It features Adam Tendler on piano and my hubby Dirk Caber (credited under his real name, Jack Parton) on rope bondage and as narrator. Enjoy.


Text by Mark Mangini:

So here I am, here we are. One tie leads to the next, One tie leads to the next.
and once again I am nothing without you.
This physical restriction emphasizes
purity of communication
predicated on trust. Trust.
In this space we transcend ourselves
and our lives and our words.
How many more times do you need to hear
that love is all we need?

And with you, together, I know only of what I feel; that I can express directly
with no intervention, without artifice.
A half dragging the dead weight of the day from place to senseless place —
But here I learn I can breathe again.
I can think/feel/express with
a clarity that makes no sense in the day
to day world.
You put a hand in mine and I believed.
You spoke and I understood.
We know no ambiguity.
We have created a new reality.

It works as a focus.
One note, one point, a concentration.
The dissonance doesn’t resolve; it ceases to be.
“I don’t need you anymore” transitions to “I am you now.”
We are fused in that heat, dependent on the other to breathe,
to feel, to be.
You do not have to chase after me now because I have given myself up to you,
have put myself in you, am bound to you.
We are one focused point in space.