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A Hair-Razing Experience
I’ve been shaving my head for almost 10 years… and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Don’t get me wrong, I loved my barbers (sensible Vicki and her insane cousin Mark… or, as he pronounced it, “Maaaaahk”), but I can’t say I miss trekking all the way out to Roslindale every 6 weeks or so to sit around waiting for an hour; Vicki and Maaaaahk were quite talented, but as a result had tons of customers. Besides, I’d been steadily losing my hair for a couple of years, so they really had very little to do.
The first day I shaved it was July 3, 2003… my 30th birthday. I was completely prepared, having done my research and bought one of these (which I still use from time to time). I was kind of embarrassed… so when I met my friends for dinner that night, I wore a baseball cap. My friend Jamie must have suspected something; “Let’s see it,” he instructed almost immediately. So I reluctantly removed the lid. The reaction, much to my surprise, was positive; my friends loved my new look.
I had been afraid of losing my hair; I’d even tried Rogaine in my late 20s, but to no avail. At first I thought that shaving my head was the ultimate sign of defeat: alopecia had won. I quickly learned to embrace my new look, though. Soon I grew a goatee to pair with the bald noggin (they were especially popular in 2004; I remember most of the hockey players in the NHL playoffs were favoring them over the more traditional “playoff beard”). Within a couple of years, the goatee had become a beard, which I’ve had ever since. I’m pretty happy with the way I look now, and don’t foresee changing it anytime soon. Bald is beautiful! These days I shave about 2 or 3 times a week; in fact, I shaved my head just this morning, and took the above pic when I did.
I’ve posted some more pics of my various stages of shaved-headedness below, plus a video that Titan director Jasun Mark filmed of me shaving my head on the set of Incubus 2.
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- Pre-shaved (2002)
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- Shaved head, with goatee (2004)
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- Shaved, with beard (2011)
Kinko de Mayo, Kansas City style!
THIS is why I love my job! Dirk, Johnny Parker, and I had the immense pleasure of joining the cast and crew of Hamburger Mary’s Kansas City to celebrate Cinco de Mayo… or, as they called it, Kinko de Mayo! We had an amazing time dancing and encouraging all sorts of debauchery. I spent much of the evening serving up “bear cum” shots: People would lie face-upwards on a massage table in front of me while I poured shots of rum and coconut cream into their mouths. The coconut cream looked just like… well, you know. ;) And I might have “accidentally” misfired and dribbled some onto my customers’ faces. When I did, I was sure to lick it off… I never waste a drop!
We also took time out for karaoke. Every five years or so I do karaoke to remind myself never to do karaoke, ever. Johnny and Dirk have beautiful voices, and rocked their respective renditions of “Long Black Train” and “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.” I, who can’t sing for shit, insisted that the three of us sing Kylie Minogue’s “Timebomb” as an homage to Titan director Jasun Mark’s amazing music video. The results were disastrous. (See below.)
Finally, we took time to unwind at Hamburger Mary’s Drag Brunch. We laughed… we cried… and I got to witness Parker singing “I Will Survive” while wearing a pink dress. Some things you just can’t make up. (Again… see below.)
What a fantastically fun weekend. Huge thanks to to the incredibly welcoming folks at Hamburger Mary’s and KC Bear Mafia who made us feel like royalty, to the amazing JP Barnaby and Jodi Dash who witnessed our karaoke massacre and lived to tell about it, and to all the AWESOME people who came out to the club on Saturday night! We had such a great time and met lots of amazing folks. Dirk and I are hoping that the fine ladies and gentlemen of Kansas City will have us back real soon!
Pics and embarrassing karaoke video below.
Shadow Fucking
There’s something about this clip that I find incredibly hot. It’s only 14 seconds long, and it suffers from “vertical video syndrome,” but I don’t care. The audio is amazing, and the shadows drive my imagination crazy. It’s like there’s something going on just around the corner that would make my head explode. Fucking awesome!
Maybe part of it is that I recognize that sexy shadow (and congratulations to my Facebook fans Angel R. and Mikel S. for guessing correctly): It’s my hubby Dirk Caber — looking as incredible as ever, even in silhouette — topping Will Swagger (who provides most of the head-exploding audio) in their scene from Titan’s Pumped, Pissed, and Pounded. Check out a free preview below, then watch the whole 38 minute scene right now in streaming HD, only from Titan. (You won’t find it anywhere else!)
In addition to watching Dirk and Will’s scene in its entirety, you’ll get access to over 5000 other full scenes when you sign up for instant, unlimited Titan access for as little as $14.95 a month.
Road Trip
My hot husband Dirk drove with Titan director Jasun Mark and newly-minted Titan Man Scott Hunter from LA to SF last week, and… this happened. OMG.
The song, by the way, is “Timebomb” by Kylie Minogue. You can watch the official video here.
Free preview of Dirk’s new ROUGH film “Pumped, Pissed, and Pounded”
My hubby Dirk’s got a new movie coming out! Pumped, Pissed, and Pounded — starring George Ce, Dirk Caber, Adam Herst, Rogue Status, Will Swagger, and the sexy Anthony London — is available on DVD right now from the TitanMen store, and scene 1 is already available on-demand here. Dirk’s scene with Will Swagger, the third and final scene, will be released to Titan On-Demand in a couple of weeks; in the meantime, enjoy the free XXX preview (above), and a few advance pics of Dirk’s scene (below)!
Shay Michaels does the “Happy Dance”
Dirk and I met up with our good friends and fellow porn actors (and real-life partners) Shay Michaels and Brian Davilla at a bar in Fort Lauderdale last week. The bar was holding a raffle, and Shay won the chance to spin the giant wheel for cash and prizes. He won Sunday brunch… and then he did the “happy dance.” Glad I was there to film it, because you don’t get a chance to see a porn star jerking off on stage every day.
Well, on second thought, I suppose you would if you frequented Steamworks. Heck, you might even see me doing it there. It’s been known to happen.
EXTRA Extra Firm: More pics of me & Dirk!
Dirk and I are really excited about our second scene together for TitanMen! Our first Titan film, Loud and Nasty, came out last May, and was so successful that Titan decided to shoot another! The new scene, the third and final act in Extra Firm, was released yesterday and features a glimpse of me and Dirk’s home life; it’s kind of like our home movies but with better lighting and sound. We hope you like it as much as we loved filming it! The 4 minute free preview is above; the entire movie is available right now in streaming HD for Titan subscribers. If you’re not a subscriber, sign up now to get instant access to this scene and over 5000 others for as little as 48 cents a day.
Here’s a bunch of official Titan promo ads and stills from our scene. Enjoy!
Colby’s Colossal Cumshot
Check out Colby White’s epic cumshot from the new Titan film Extra Firm. I’m jealous… I can only shoot like that after Dirk‘s been pounding me for hours. Colby seems to do be able to do it on command!
Watch the whole scene here… and remember, my scene with Dirk in Extra Firm comes out this Tuesday!
From Titanium to Strobe… or, “How I Almost Named a Porno”
The date was August 20, 2012, and it was a pleasant (if somewhat cool) San Francisco afternoon. Casey Williams and I had just finished filming our scene for the upcoming “untitled nightclub feature” (which would later become Strobe… more on that in a moment) at a popular dance club in San Francisco… the same place, in fact, where I’d first met Dirk in September of 2011! 
Anyway, we were mulling around waiting for the extras to arrive so we should shoot the film’s opening party sequence and interstitials (collectively called “B-roll”) and I started wondering what the movie could be called. Clash? Nah, too confrontational. VIP? Might piss off Pamela Anderson. Then it hit me. Titanium. That could be the name of the fictional club where the action was set, and the name of the film itself. I ran it by Casey and the production crew, and the response was positive. “Oh, like the song!” Casey observed.
The title began to stick. The production team started referring to the project as “Titanium”. I thought I’d done it… I thought I’d named a porno. T.P. Deaux even put together a conceptual teaser trailer:
But then, alas, someone in marketing reminded us that Titan sells a brand of silicone lube called Titanium (good lube, by the way). My title had been used — sigh — so the hunt for a title began anew. At first the working title became Hard Beats, but Titan had recently released Hard Up (with Spencer Reed) and we didn’t want to re-use the H-word again too soon. Then T.P. finally hit on a winner: Strobe. Kinda of a cross between “stroke” and “probe”, with a nod to the use of strobe lights in club culture. Win.
Next came the task of putting together a Strobe teaser trailer. T.P. and DiscoPup collaborated on getting the initial video edit and original music together, and came up with this rough version of the teaser:
Which, after more editing, eventually turned into the official teaser trailer (with additional clips from the film):
And, finally… the full official Strobe trailer, with extended clips from the three scenes, and a completely rewritten theme song that would later become known as the “Theme from Strobe”:
DiscoPup, it should be noted, was handed a huge challenge in writing “Theme from Strobe”. The music needed to work on two levels. First, it would be used as the music playing in the club when my scene partner, Casey, was spinning. But when we make eye contact, time slows down, and the music starts playing at half speed. (Which was kind of my idea, by the way… we didn’t have the club lights running while we were filming… I pointed this out, so T.P. came up with the “time slows down” concept to explain that discrepancy.) So on the one hand the track had to be dance-worthy and fun at full speed, but turn into sexy “bow-chika-wow-wow” music at half speed… and I think DiscoPup handled the task masterfully. Take a look at the extended preview of the scene, and see for yourself how well the music from the official trailer works at half-speed:
Pretty cool, huh?
So that’s the story of how I almost named a porno… and a little behind-the-scenes peek at how a film moves from concept to trailer to full-on Titan production. I hope you enjoyed it! And make sure you check out the final version of TitanMen’s STROBE, now steaming in on-demand HD and also available for purchase on DVD!