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VIDEO: Dirk is writing songs for me! And I’m playing them! (Sorta.)

Dirk has started writing music for me! Specifically, he’s started writing a “songbook” for me as I start re-learning how to play piano, which I haven’t played since I was a kid. Here’s me trying to play the first of them… well, the first half of it, anyway. I’m still working on learning the second half… it’s really hard!

The song is a “barcarole” which, according to Wikipedia, is a traditional Italian folk song that was commonly sung by Venetian gondoliers in the 19th century. (“Barca” is Italian for “boat.”) Hopefully I’ll be able to play the whole thing soon… and a little bit faster than what you see here. To be continued…

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New video: Me, Dirk Caber, Max Cameron… and a violet wand (NSFW)

When Dirk’s out in San Francisco, he likes to have fun… and Mr. S Leather is more than happy to pay him for it. Well… actually they compensate him with store credit, which is just fine with him considering his love of leather and fetish gear. Dirk shot the above video for the Mr. S catalog on his last trip out there; in it, he’s torturing Max Cameron with one of their violet wand kits. Those things are pretty awesome… I should know, because Dirk and I filmed a scene using one for TitanMen’s Rough line. Here’s a preview:

If you want to watch our full scene — it’s 53 minutes long and also features a real live taser — click here. By the way, Dirk and I ended up buying the violet wand we’re using in the video… and you can too.

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The Gay Comic Geek reviews OUT!

I always look forward to watching the Gay Comic Geek‘s porn reviews. They’re really fun to watch — Paul’s energy is infectious — but beyond that, they give you a really honest assessment of each film’s quality. But I’ve been especially looking forward to this review of TitanMen’s OUT! because I’m so proud of this film. Here’s the NSFW review:

To me, the best part of the review is when Paul talks about the film’s message. “One of the best aspects about this movie is the coming out aspect,” he says. “It was treated very positively. Many porn movies treat the aspect of staying in the closet as much more important, and having much of of a sexualized aspect to it. In this movie, once they do come out, it’s very positive and something that I think is really good.” Thanks, Paul… that’s exactly what we were going for! You can read about how OUT! came to be here.

You can watch or download OUT! here with your TitanMen membership. Not a member? Sign up now for instant access. OUT! is available on DVD, too.

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Whoops! Eric Nero & Tex Davidson accidentally webcast fuck session!

Tex Davidson was broadcasting a live show on TitanLive, and while he was in the middle of pumping for his live audience, there was a knock at the door. Who should it be but tax auditor Eric Nero… sporting a hot new beard, I might add. The two of them quickly got busy… but Tex forgot to turn off the webcam!

That’s the plot of Tex and Eric’s scene in the new film Taxman Cumeth, available exclusively from TitanMen. The movie also stars David Benjamin with Diesel Washington (scene 2, which is a crossover from OUT!), and Nick Prescott with Adam Ramzi (scene 3). The final two scenes will be released over the next two weeks, but you can watch Tex and Eric’s scene now with your Titan membership. Not a member? Sign up now to stream Titan’s entire catalog in HD — or download them to keep forever — and watch new scenes the instant they come out!

[Side note: I’m doing my taxes today. Man, all these 1099s really suck! And not in a good way. –Jesse]

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Interview: Catching Up with the Demon

Note: Back in 2013 I sat down with the adult film blog GayDemon to talk about my favorite scenes, my relationship with Dirk, and my plans for the future. Almost three years later, the site contacted me again, knowing we had a lot of catching up to do. I’ve posted the all-new interview called “Catching Up with Jesse Jackman” below. (You can read the original 2013 interview here… as you can see, I’m still loving life today as much as I was three years ago!) –JJ

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Catching Up with Jesse JackmanPosted by GayDemon on 28 Mar 2016

Thanks for speaking to us today! We’re really excited about your new Titan movie, OUT! Can you tell us a bit about it and when we can see?

I’m really excited too! The film is about a fictional hall-of-fame baseball coach named A.J. Benson who comes out during a live TV interview. It was directed by TitanMen lead director Jasun Mark and stars no less than five TitanMen exclusives (Dallas Steele, Nick Prescott, Diesel Washington, Eric Nero, and me), plus hottie Luke Adams and my fiancé Dirk Caber. I co-wrote the screenplay with TitanMen VP Keith Webb and play A.J. in two scenes, one with Nick and one with Dallas. (Both are flip scenes, by the way.) OUT! was announced on February 29, the first scene went live on March 2 at TitanMen.com, and an additional scene was released every Wednesday up until the big finale on March 23.

dvd25_outOUT! is a really hot film — it has over three hours of super-sweaty hardcore action — but what I’m most proud of is the interview segment, which you can watch for free at OutBaseball.com. We shot it last July with Dallas playing the interviewer (he has over 20 years of real-world experience as a newscaster). It covers topics like the difficulties of growing up as a closeted gay athlete, the challenges of being gay in professional sports, and the ways that LGBT public figures can be encouraging to the fans who look up to them. Dallas and I even discuss the little-mentioned economic deterrent of coming out in professional sports, something I wrote about in a recent Huffington Post article. When the emotional interview is over, Dallas’s character confesses that he’s always had a crush on A.J., leading to our scene (which, by the way, was my first ever four-position flip fuck scene). It was an amazing day on set, believe me!

What other exciting projects have you been involved in since we last spoke in November 2013?

There’s been so much great stuff going on! In the last couple of years I’ve filmed a dozen more scenes with Titan, including a couple of them with my hubby Dirk (in Foul Play and Sweat). Dirk and I performed live shows at HustlaBall in both London and Berlin, and we continued our association with a charity in upstate New York called PAWS that helps people living with HIV and AIDS care for their animal companions.

Our beautiful new piano, thanks to YOU!

Our beautiful new piano, thanks to YOU!

But beyond that, two things really stand out to me. The first is that, because of the incredible generosity of our fans, Dirk and I were able to buy a beautiful digital grand piano! Dirk is a professional composer, but his creativity really suffered when he moved away from New York six years ago and lost access to a piano — a tool that’s absolutely vital to his craft. I hatched this crazy idea last year that we could start a GoFundMe campaign, offering people CDs of Dirk’s music, signed scores, and even original, custom-written compositions in exchange for a contribution towards the cost of the instrument. We thought we’d make a few hundred bucks at best, but to our utter shock we raised nearly $13,000… and with a bit of luck scouring the used market, we were able to acquire the piano of Dirk’s dreams. The outpouring of support completely blew us away, and we’re forever indebted to our fans for that. Dirk’s been composing up a storm, which I’ve gotta say is awe-inspiring to witness. We’re now working on getting his pieces recorded, so you can expect to hear some brand new music very soon! (In the meantime, you can listen to some of Dirk’s existing work on his SoundCloud page, soundcloud.com/dirkcaber.)

Then in June of last year, Dirk and I had the incredible opportunity to work with the Victorian AIDS Council in Australia. The VAC flew us to Melbourne to help host a week of events and seminars called Down an’ Dirty, where we talked about topics like safer sex, harm reduction, and building healthy relationships. We were even on the radio! Both of us were very impressed by the dedication of the VAC folks, and Melbourne quickly became one of our favorite cities in the world. We look forward to returning someday.

You’re still going strong with your husband Dirk Caber, right? What’s the secret to a successful partnership such as yours when you’re involved with so many other men?

I think the secret is that we don’t get jealous, and the key to that is making sure that neither one of us ever feels excluded from the other person’s life. We always share the details of our shoots, much the same way that any couple would say “Hey honey, how was work today?” And if either one of us wants to hook up with a hot guy away from a porn set, the other is always welcome to join in. In fact, we only have one rule in our relationship: “Never bring home anything you don’t want to share.” It works on all sorts of levels, from hook-ups to STDs to take-out pizza.

We’ve already talked in our previous interview about things you enjoy doing in your spare time, and you shared your blog and Huffington Post column. Is there anything new to add?

I’m happy to say that the scope of my writing has expanded a bit since we last spoke. In February, I wrote my first mainstream political article (not LGBT-focused, as was the case in my earlier articles) about the U.S. presidential election called “I’m Voting for Donald Trump… Here’s Why”, which got picked up by several major news outlets. (Please read the article before judging it by its headline!) I also wrote a follow-up article about the conservative media’s, shall we say, “creative” response to the first one. The pair of pieces generated a lot of discussion, and I was gratified to see the points I’d raised start to surface in more and more mainstream political discussions over the next several weeks. I’m no pundit, but now that I’ve gotten my feet wet, you may very well see more politically-themed articles from me in the future.

You are passionate about a lot of things, which is particularly evident on your Twitter page. What would you say is the first and foremost thing that you are passionate about, besides Dirk?

That changes from week to week, month to month, and year to year. At the moment, it’s politics. I’m captivated by this year’s election cycle, and am always either glued to cable news or tracking the latest polls. The rise of Donald Trump is especially mesmerizing to me. While I despise the man’s character and nearly all of his positions, I find his popularity to be a fascinating reflection of the deeply divided psyche of this country. For me, watching the Republicans stumble their way toward a (likely) contested convention in July is like watching a train wreck unfold in slow motion. I can’t keep my eyes off it.

Who will you be working with in the future? Anything in particular that’s been lined up that you can share with us?

I filmed a scene easier this month with the really hunky Bruce Beckham, who’s making his return to porn after a nearly ten year absence. He’s a really great guy and we had a lot of fun on set! He looks amazingly hot and scruffy; scruff is a big turn-on for me, and I’m sure that my excitement comes through in the scene. I don’t know when it’ll be released yet, but I have a feeling the final edit is going to be great.

On the set of my upcoming fetish film

On the set of my upcoming fetish film

As for what’s next… I’ve got a scene coming out this May in a new fetish film that looks like a live-action piece of Tom of Finland artwork, or something from Titan’s Fallen Angel series. I’m not allowed to tell you what the title is just yet, but I’ll be at International Mister Leather in Chicago over Memorial Day weekend promoting it.

In the 3 years since we last caught up, a lot has changed. There’s been many newcomers, many leavers, and too many tragedies in the porn world. Who would you say you’re most excited to see come into the industry, and who will you miss the most?

I’m really happy for Dallas Steele. He made a big splash when he joined the Titan stable last year, and he’s already been nominated for two Cybersocket awards and several Grabbys. It was such a pleasure working with him in OUT!, and we quickly became friends. I thought he was great in Blue Collar Ballers (with my hubby Dirk!) and Cauke for President too, and I can’t wait to see what he does next.

On the “departures” side, I’m a little sad that I never got to work with Tom Wolfe before he retired. I’ve met him in person a couple of times; he has this really great energy about him. Oh, what might have been!

Can we still see you exclusively signed to TitanMen for some time to come? We’re always in awe of the films you make with them.

Thanks! I’m having the time of my life. As long as it stays fun, and the Titan guys want to work with me, I’m in!

Are you looking forward to any particular events this year, and which?

Dirk and I are both really looking forward to IML in Chicago where I’ll be promoting the release of the new fetish film. And that weekend is also the Grabby Awards! It’s always a fun show, and a bunch of other Titan guys will be there with us. I was even nominated for Performer of the Year, which is quite an honor and very exciting! Other than that, Dirk and I will be celebrating our fifth anniversary as a couple in September, and every year we’ve returned to the scene of our first meeting: the Folsom Street Fair in San Francisco. It’s not set in stone yet, but I imagine we’ll go back again this year. It’s a guaranteed good time.

Finally, Jesse, can you tell us if Loud and Nasty is still your favorite scene to make, or if not, what came along to blow it out of the water?

Rogan, Skippy, Dirk, and me

Rogan, Skippy, Dirk, and me

Loud and Nasty will always hold a special place in my heart because it was the first scene I ever filmed with Dirk. In addition to that, the two of us recently had the opportunity to film a four-way scene with a pair of Aussie studs who also happen to be great friends of ours — Rogan Richards and Skippy Baxter — for Rogan’s new website. The four of us together… I’m amazed we didn’t break the bed! It was intense, but also laid-back and really fun. The scene was released on March 14… you can watch it at RoganRichards.com.

I have to say, though, that OUT! just might eclipse Loud and Nasty and the Aussie 4-way as my favorite film yet. I really poured my heart into it, and even created the film’s official website OutBaseball.com. I’m so grateful to Keith Webb for trusting in me to help develop the concept and write the script, to all of the actors in the film for positively nailing their roles, to the entire production team at Titan for really “hitting it out of the park,” so to speak… and especially to director Jasun Mark for working so hard on this little labor of love. I’m just so unbelievably proud to be a part of such an amazing team. After almost five years of working together, they really have become like family to me.

Thanks again for talking with GayDemon. We look forward to catching up with you again soon!

Always a pleasure. Until next time!