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The Bear Mais interview (English version)

The other day, the Brazilian magazine Bear Mais published an article called “Alegrias, Dramas, e Sucessos dos Atores Pornôs” (“The Joys, Dramas, and Successes of Porn Stars”) that features interviews with me, Ale Tedesco, Matteo Valentine, and Jeff Stronger. Here’s the English version of my interview; the full article translation (with all four interviews) is coming soon to the Bear Mais website. “Obrigado pela leitura!” (Thanks for reading!)


When did you begin your career in porn?

I started working in porn in the summer of 2011. I had never even thought about doing it, but then I met Hunter Marx and his partner Ethan Anders — both Titan models — over the summer and they were such good guys (and the sex was so good) that I decided it could be fun to try. When Titan Jackman 05contacted me a month later to see if I wanted to film with them, I thought about it for a couple of weeks, decided it was worth trying, and agreed. Three weeks later I was in San Francisco filming my first scene for a film called Surveillance… and by complete coincidence, my scene partner was Hunter Marx! It was a lot of fun. after we’d finished filming, Titan offered me an exclusive contract, which I accepted. I’ve been having the time of my life ever since!

Did you have a problem when your family discovered your profession? Do you have a good relationship with them?

Last year, my mother found out that I make porn. She accidentally saw my bank account statement with a deposit from Titan Media, wondered what it was, and googled it… and I was on the front page of Titan’s website. She kept it to herself for several months before we finally talked about it, but when we finally did talk, she was great. She had been upset at first, but then she read my blog and saw my Facebook page and realized that working in porn had made me so happy. She not a huge fan of the idea, but she’s been incredibly supportive. (If you want to read the whole story of how she found out, check out my blog post at http://jessejackman.xxx/2012/10/04/she-knows.) I’m also happy to say that my family has expanded as a result of my porn work. Shortly after I started working with Titan, I met my partner Dirk Caber, a fellow actor who has worked with Titan, COLT, Kink.com and many other studios. We both Jackman 01worked at the Titan booth at the Folsom Street Fair in 2011 and have been together ever since. We’ve even filmed two Titan scenes together! He’s a truly amazing man, and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him. To read the whole story of how we met, check out http://jessejackman.xxx/category/my-porn-romance.

Many people wonder about what it’s like to be in porn. What do you think about this line of work?

I’m very passionate about making porn, as I am about most things in life. When you watch one of my scenes, everything you see is real; my reactions are genuine, the passion intense, and the connection sincere. When I connect with my scene partner, I lose myself in the experience, and simply focus on the pleasure and the intensity of the moment. If it looks like I’m really into the scene, it’s because I am. For me, making porn is a powerful and positive form of sexual self-expression. I use to be sort of reserved, but the films have really built my sexual confidence and encouraged me to open up and try new things. And Titan’s studio is a safe environment to try new things with established experts. I first tried watersports on the set of Surveillance, for example. Also, I never thought I’d like electro play, but when I was first introduced to it in the Titan Rough film Loud and Nasty, I actually really enjoyed it. I even bought a violet wand and have been using it at home.

Jackman 02Many people think that all porn stars are escorts. Is that true? What is the difference?

Very few porn actors work in the industry full-time. The average porn “career” lasts about two years, and most of us have other jobs. Some porn actors also work as escorts, but there are plenty of other occupations: I know corporate executives, health professionals, dancers, personal trainers, store managers, and even a meteorologist who also works in porn. The point is that it’s very difficult to get enough work to make a living exclusively as an porn actor. Escorting is a perfectly reasonable way to support oneself outside of the industry, but the important thing to keep in mind is that it’s not the only way. We’re not all escorts.

How do you get a hard-on when the director and production assistants are watching you?

I really get turned on by connection. When I work with a scene partner I like, and I’m genuinely attracted to them, it’s easy to get and stay excited about having sex with him… even if there are lots of people watching. And so far I’ve really liked everyone I’ve worked with. Titan’s stable of porn stars are HOT and have all been very easy to connect with, so staying hard is easy.

Is your relationship with the producers always friendly, or do uncomfortable situations occur?

I’ve only worked with Titan, of course, but everyone at the studio has been so professional and so respectful; they truly are a pleasure to work with. First and foremost, the guys want to make sure that the performers are comfortable. I’ve never been asked to do anything that I feel uncomfortable doing. And my interaction with the staff is great; they’re serious about making the best product they possibly can, but they also have a lot of fun doing it. Titan is like a big family… one which, as a Titan exclusive, I’m honored and proud to be a part of.

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Bear Mais Magazine… my Brazilian debut!

Here it is… my first Brazilian interview! This article was just published in the online magazine Bear Mais. Don’t worry if you can’t read Portuguese; the interview will be published in English in the next few days (and, of course, I’ll post it here when it is). Big thanks to my friend Sergio for fixing Google’s translation of my original interview!

Check out the rest of the magazine for free at www.bearmaismagazine.com.br.

Sunday evening Q&A

I was recently interviewed by Tat2dgy (a.k.a. Richard, who snapped this pic of us at this year’s Folsom Street Fair) for his excellent blog Tat2dgy Vues the Industry. We talked about my personal life, my growing interest in exhibitionism… and my ultimate porn fantasy. With his permission, I’m reposting the interview in its entirety here. Be sure to check out Richard’s blog at tat2dvues.blogspot.com!


How — if at all — has being in the adult industry changed your views about sex?

    The entire experience has been incredibly liberating. Sex was never really talked about in my family when I was growing up, and coming out proved very challenging for me. Eventually I came to accept myself, and even be proud of my sexuality. Once I realized this, I became a lot more relaxed about sex and have found that I enjoy it more than ever. Working in the industry is just a natural extension of that for me; I’m becoming more comfortable with myself all the time.

How — if at all — has your experience in porn changed your view of yourself?

    I have a motto of sorts: “In Porno Veritas.” I’ve learned a lot about myself through my work in the industry. For example, I realized that I’m a far more confident person than I’ve ever given myself credit for, and with that confidence comes a level of pride I never thought I could attain. I don’t just make porn; I make the very best porn I possibly can, and I’m damn proud of that fact… which means that I can be proud of who I am, no matter what I choose to do.

    Deciding to enter the industry was a difficult, but measured, choice on my part, because it pushed me considerably outside of my comfort zone. However, I’ve found over and over again that when I venture out of my comfort zone I’m rewarded immensely; as someone once said, “Don’t be afraid to go out on a limb; that’s where the fruit is.” (That quote has been attributed to Mark Twain, Will Rogers, Jimmy Carter, Mother Theresa, and any number of other people… but that doesn’t make it any less valid!)

What — if anything — had you fantasized about that you got to experience thanks to your experience in porn?

    I’d say it’s having sex in public. I’d always been a fairly private person when it came to my sex life. Performing in front of a small film crew for the first time was difficult, but was also an eye-opener. I had to keep reminding myself that these guys were professionals and have seen all this stuff before; that made it easier. As I grew more comfortable and the performance anxiety subsided, I started exploring exhibitionism outside of the studio. Last May, my boyfriend Dirk Caber and I did a live show at Steamworks in Chicago, and more recently I got a blow job on stage from both Dirk and Rowdy Worth in front of several thousand people at the Magnitude party in San Francisco. I loved it!

What — if anything — in the porn industry do you want to experience that you’ve not already done?

    I haven’t filmed a three-way (or more-than-three-way) scene yet, which is something I’d love to do. Also, I’d give my left nut (well… not really) to be in a sports-themed film, given my rather broad sports experience (I’ve played football, rugby, hockey, baseball, basketball, rugby… just to name a few).

Based on your interaction with fans, do people have any misconceptions about you? If so, what are they?

    Most people, oddly enough, assume I live in either San Francisco or LA, and live some sort of glamorous porn star lifestyle, whatever that is. Believe me, I appreciate the pretty awesome life I’m enjoying right now… not only do I get to fuck some of the hottest guys on the planet, I’ve met lots of amazing people all over the country. But when it comes down to it, I’m just your average guy. I own a home, have a steady job, great friends… it’s a good, stable life I live here. (In Boston, by the way.)

    Another misconception is that, even though I might look the part, I hardly consider myself to be a “daddy” like most people think I am. I may pushing 40, but I’m still a young ‘un at heart!

Do you have a favorite type of scene partner — or a favorite scene partner — to work with?

    They’ve all been great — Titan’s paired me with some of the most amazingly hot, smart, sweet, sexy men I’ve ever met — but there’s only one real answer here: My boyfriend Dirk. He rocks my world, both on-screen and off.

What — if anything — would you shy away from doing onscreen?

    Some of the more fetish-oriented stuff would be difficult for me. I’d probably shy away from fisting, scat, sounding… that sort of thing. That said, Titan is a safe environment to try new things with established experts, so I’d be open to most anything else. I never thought I’d like electro play, for example, but when I was first introduced to it in the Titan Rough film Loud and Nasty, I actually really liked it. I even bought a violet wand and have been using it at home.

How — if at all — has your porn career been effected by your non-porn career/job (or how has your non-porn career/job been affected by porn)?

    The two are, in fact, quite complementary. My “day job” gives me the flexibility to fly out to San Francisco, film a couple of scenes, and come right home (usually on the red-eye) to resume my normal responsibilities. Titan, also, has been great at working around my schedule. I’ve only faced one significant challenge: Last year, someone sent an anonymous (and somewhat threatening) letter of complaint to my day job’s Customer Affairs department; the letter called for my termination on the grounds that I make porn — how salacious! — in my spare time. My company’s response, though, was amazing. You can read the whole story here: http://jessejackman.xxx/2012/10/15/adversity-advocacy-and-affirmation

What is one thing about you that your fans might be surprised by?

    I may look tough, but I’m a total teddy bear at heart… although I suppose anyone who reads my blog or follows me on Facebook can figure that out pretty quickly.

How — if at all — has your porn career affected your relationship?

Do you get recognized when you’re out in your home city?

    Occasionally… and probably more than I hear about. I’m not shy about telling people about my side job, so I’m pretty sure a lot of people are aware of it, especially in inherently social places like the gym. Boston can be a rather reserved city, though, so while I think some people might know me as “that porn guy,” they’d never actually say anything about it to me directly. There’s a lot more to me than just the fact that I make porn, but I think a lot of people don’t see that; all they see is the guy who has sex on screen. It’s a bit frustrating.

Where can your fans see your work?